HAINE

Journal Entry

THOUGHTS™️

01–09–2022

︎ Writer: Stew Caldo





Lately I've felt cold – too cold to do anything. I wear gloves and socks around the house, and usually a large coat. I can't turn on the heater because my allergies react. I can't stay in bed all day under the covers. My only choice is to be cold. My fingers feel numb, and so do my toes.


I used to love the cold – thrive in it in fact. But now it feels like it's taken over my life. I'm just constantly. Cold.


The winter is taking a toll on me. Spiritually and mentally, more than just physically. I feel such a lack of purpose. Like nothing I do is meaningful. Waking up in the mornings, I sit for 20 sometimes 30 minutes and just stare at the ceiling. Not a thought in my mind. Just a lack of motivation to get up and do the same day over again.