SINKING

Journal Entry

THOUGHTS™️

02–12–2021

︎ Writer: Stew Caldo




It’s interesting to think that even though I feel this low, it’s still not depression. Like I could sink even lower than this, and clinically, it wouldn’t be classified as depression. However, if I sat there everyday without the will to pull myself out of this mess, then it would be depression.


So what if I’m aimlessly clawing at the wall of this gaping whole trying to get out. No actual plan in mind. Is that depression?


I have therapy tomorrow, and I almost didn’t stop to talk to you and write tonight. I felt as if one session was gonna solve everything.


I really want some change in my life, but I can’t seem to get away from the same routine - movie in bed, 10 minutes of tiktok, good night. I think that may be the most toxic part of what I do.


I’m exhausted, but God please [REDACTED]. I’m too stressed to even touch this. Help me find rest in the middle of all of this. Teach me something new each day and give me peace of mind.