SPINNING
Journal Entry
THOUGHTS™️
05–04–2021
︎ Writer: Stew Caldo
I came home and went to the gym right now, but lost focus around 12 minutes in. My stomach is churning, my heart is beating so hard it feels like it might come out of my chest.
As I sit here trying to rationalize it all - I can't. At the end of the day, whatever can happen, will happen. When it does, that is when I'll act. In the mean time, I should live life being the best possible version of myself.
God, as I sit here trying to rationalize my anxiety away, please just slow my heart down. Bring back my breath. Talk me through this, help me be strong for Phi and Jaxon. Remind me who I am. My identity is not rooted in [REDACTED] – and if there are still parts of me that need to grow, I welcome opposition.
Tonight, give me the calm to sit in my own silence and question my actions and intentions. Help me put my ego in check, and get more in touch with who you've called me to be.