IMITATION
Journal Entry
THOUGHTS™️
11–24–2021
︎ Writer: Stew Caldo
Had an interesting experience today. It's funny - no matter how much I think I've learned or how great of a creative I think I am, there's always those humbling moments. I copied an idea from [REDCATED] and thought it was okay because they're a massive label. I thought it was okay because they'd never see. I thought it was okay because it didn't feel unethical.
In some ways – it's not unethical. But what makes it feel wrong is that I'm a leader in this space, and I shouldn't be if I just profit off other's ideas. Even if it's a massive fashion house.
The reason I feel this way about my creativity is because I know I don't actually do anything rightfully creative anymore. I'm so locked into delegating tasks and running a business, I'm not able to be at my full potential. I know that I'm here for a reason, and I've gotten this far because of some talent, skill, or ability. But it feels shitty to know that I'm not always working on the right things or using my full potential.
That being said, [REDACTED] commented back to someone in my comments with fire emojis. It felt sort of supportive, but part of me feels guilty knowing he'll see that. That someone I idolize had a weird first impression of me. I'm getting to a place where that shit won't fly anymore. I need to slow down, get off my phone, and think about what I'm doing and why I'm doing it. There doesn't always need to be something filling the silence.
I think the silence is where some of my best thoughts may lie.