STRIVING TO BE

Journal Entry

THOUGHTS™️

08–03–2021

︎ Writer: Stew Caldo




Life shouldn’t always be about striving to become – I think those that are truly happy are striving to be.


There aren’t enough moments in life that I just think about the day rather than the future.


I should trust my judgement to always make choices that will be good for my future, and leave it at that. The more I can focus on just the day ahead, the better life will be.


I want to sell my dirt bike soon and buy a Harley Sportster. But part of me is feeling like I already have way too many vehicles. But I guess if I do it at cost it doesn’t really matter. I should definitely sell the dirt bike, I hate riding it anyway. The sportster will be just as much of a vibe. I would paint the tank white and have orange and yellow flames on the sides.  [EDIT: It’s been done]


Lately Phi has been making sautéed apples in the morning. They’re delicious. It truly reminds me of my grandma. She used to cook me this sometimes on special occasions. I don’t know why such a simple dish is reserved for only special occasions.


Writing like this daily has made me realize I’m a pretty good writer. I’d like to write a book. It does worry me to have to write anything with serious structure to it. But I did like writing just as a stream of consciousness. Maybe it could be an art book - like poetry or whatever, beside photos. Do I have enough photos to do that? Probably not.


I also decided I’m buying a tattoo gun. I’m so stoked. I’ve been dying to finally try and draw some of the designs I’ve been making. I should definitely order second skin to tattoo on thought. I’m gonna go check amazon right now and see how much second skin is.